unfair.

life is not fair.
for many reasons.

its unfair, that david has the hardest working metabolism, the fullest eye lashes, and the LONGEST legs. and somehow has abs without ever working out.
while i get older and fatter.

but i guess its unfair for other people. that they can't be ME.



i think this is david's celebrity twin. they have identical body frames (and hairline). hahaha

according to hollywood

this is what life is like.

dirty sacks of shit liars.

go fuck yourself.

"gratitude is the new attitude"

I'm so very thankful for wonderful people in my life.

those who take genius notes and let me hold their hands. You, who during my breakdown two blocks away from the hospital, calmed me down and tried to locate where i was. the one who takes all my frustrations all while making the best flashcards for me. the consistent generous human being who makes sure to ask me if i am in need for anything. and my favorite person to cry to.

thank you. truly.

i tried to screen capture. and crop it to make it clearer. but macs suck and are incapable of performing simple functions like PAINT. so this is what i ended up with.

David's case database.

p. peeves

when school makes me sad i like to talk/wail to my mama. she then soothes while scolding me for not studying enough. strangely, it makes me feel better. the perfect blend of comfort and tough love.

haha, i look forward to the day when i can give her and mi padre the nice life. im lucky to have a brother who shares the task. less pressure fasho.

hunter will most definitely get a plush bed of goose down. just because.

and, i will work for fun and self-fulfillment.

when i get there i will not bitch about how i have "financial troubles".

for those who are blessed enough to be of that status and yet, continue to complain about money. or brag about cutting coupons. so they may escape the guilt of the upper class.

it's effing annoying. shut up.

behold the future.

apart of me really hopes that my life will end up like ina's.

but she just paid 5 dollars for three tomatoes. plus, she makes really bad asian food. so i guess i have to find another goal mark.

i realized that i read too many blogs and now i sound like any other blogger out here. i've lost my pizazzzzz....

in light.

all i seem to be learning from law school are the many many ways to die.
seriously.
so to put things in perspective.
i should be...

we are so attractive...and cool.
4 or 3 years ago.
why do we still look the same?

sigh. this movie was soooo good.

""Listen. To live is to be marked. To live is to change, to acquire the words of a story, and that is the only celebration we mortals really know. In perfect stillness, frankly, I've only found sorrow."

pat on the back

pretty little french press.

following advice, i started making cold-brew ice coffee simply because most places refrigerate old coffee from the previous day.

sadly, i don't take well to caffeine. it makes me weirder than normal.
but its so tasty.

what to do. what to do.

excellent work

my teacher said i did an excellent job on my case presentation.

granted, he says this to anyone who gets by.

but i'll still take it.

rockwell painting

* this is david in middle school. i think? his mama has the pictures hanging by the staircase in chronological order. he looks best here.

doesn't this picture look like its from the 50's.
but its not, my skills at i photo deceived you. =)




i will hopefully get a new camera soon. so i can document my exciting life of class/apt and canadaaaaa.

the Mac Community and 500 days

I can no longer remain silent. PEOPLE, macs are not user friendly, not even close.
my list of grievances with this superficial, over-priced, unreliable piece of machinery.

1) WHY doesn't mac's version of word incorporate the toolbox (of fonts and spacings etc.) into the document rather than a small floating toolbox that a reasonably smart person cannot find.
2) on adium: does the buddy list have to appear with the chat box. is that necessary?! i just want to chat without having another small floating buddy list obscuring my already (box) cluttered screen.
3) and this stickies application, i want the "stickies" to stay on my desktop all the time. not just when i have the stickies application open. post-its' program got it right and yet again, mac, you've failed.
4)leopard, snow leopard, boot camp, boot camp redux = wth.

silver lining: after these five years i'll be fluent in both pc and mac. and then i'll go work for pcs.

anywho.
i didn't like 500 days of summer mostly because Summer seemed all too familiar. who in los angeles is not neurotic, purposely quirky, vegan, and a hippy hipster. her disinterest in the cute Gordon-Levitt was neither interesting nor inspiring: she's just not that into him.

hahaha, i feel better. thank you blogspot for this opportunity to hate freely.

would you like an update?

hola amigos,

here goes the haps in my life.

im no longer the biggest leach of the universe. though im not yet capable of helping out the family as i would like. at least i can keep my own.

thanks to nosaj151, i now tutor kids (some sweet, some stupid, some with adhd) in reading/writing. its neither fun nor interesting. but i don't pander for tips so it works for meee.

things at home are kinda rough. im my mama's helper, companion and stress-ball. its helping me be a better person. And yes, saints have room for improvement.

Happy
Papa
Day.

you do so much. and i love you.

apple sweet

ever so classy.

Favorite comfort food? - Mama's oxtail soup and int'l deli's turkey sandwich on squaw. really cheesy cheeseburgers.

Guilty pleasures? - doughnuts? i think.

Describe your perfect meal. - freshly shucked oysters (from somewhere in the northern, western region area), grilled rib-eye steak with a loaded baked potato, and to finish something light and subtly sweet.

or, a long meal at an established izakaya. with enough beer and sake to go around.

What food won't you eat?

What would you like to try but haven't yet? roasted bone marrow, blowfish sashimi and much more.

Favorite food person? - Nigella Lawson and Barefoot Contessa

When did you first realize you were a serious eater? - idk? when i couldn't lose weight.

What do your family and friends think of your food obsessions? - its not that important to them.

Favorite food sites or blogs? - most anything BUT yelp.com.

Everyone has a go-to person they call for restaurant recommendations. Who's yours? - anyone enthusiastic.

And what's the best recommendation she's ever given you? - kathy: terried sake house.

What is your favorite meal of the day and where do you get it? - a lazy breakfast.

Do you ever cook? What's the best dish you make? -yup, i'd have to say lasagna.

zero motivation

i've lost the drive to do anything. where did it go?! thank goodness for my oasis and a wonderful support system.

my mother doesn't mind having a deadbeat daughter. and said its part of the natural process of growing up. my brother is everything i need him to be: a supporter, listener and sometimes an atm.

people often comment on how i come off as someone who is TOO comfortable in her skin. i don't know if thats good or bad. but with a family and friends like mine, its merely a reaction. so fuck off.

anywho. this is my statement of thanks and appreciation. and my motivation to make it up to them. =)

wine with real housewives.

back with an update on my life. because i know you guys are dying to know.

lets see.

sat, sun, mon, tue, wed: I do absolutely nothing. its the reason why i don't get sick. after those two crazy months, my life has been so stress-less.

and for two days, i have to deal with bitches and assholes. but lets not get into that.

SO in two week, i'll be in chicago with my beloved. YAYAYAYYA. im super excited. i haven't gotten work off yet but i could give a fuck.

lastly, i'd like to update on...

i like: bravo series, movies: fear and the craft, buying books at costco, barefoot contessa, thirty somethings, wine with hbo series, custard ice cream, cheap plane tickets, jalapeno poppers, eating with my dogs and lounging with the mama.

hahahha.

I GET IT. that damn "if you seek amy" song on britney's album was driving nuts. but i finally got it. YAYA im so effing proud of myself right now.

suffocation, no breathing.

shameful shameful. my blogspot is by far the saddest of the bunch. with the exception of jeanne, im in the company of lovely writers and inspiring photographers.

and so far, all i have to say is neither funny or profound.

IT ALL CHANGES HERE.

so let me see.


*blink, blink*


...this is going to be harder than i thought. too much presssssure.